Insensitive Man: Preface: mini-skirt, uniform fetishism, lolita fetishism

I wondered if I could write one book holding the position, “this is what I am like.” And, so that’s what I did and this book is that accomplishment. ..... . I have the impression that a scholar should not write things so subjectively, but at the same time, I strongly feel that it should be a scholar’s duty to endeavor to make such an attempt when researching something as personal as sexuality.

*Translation by Jamie Grefe.
*Page numbers in the original are marked by [(preceding page) / (following page)].

    In this book, I’m going to write about the insensitivity of men. Some men, because of their insensitivity, suffer from sexual fantasies regarding mini-skirts, uniform fetishism, rorikon (Lolita fetishism) and rape.Through the duration of this book, I intend to talk a lot about my own insensitivity. This book is not a general theory of “man”, but actually, an investigation from my own personal perspective.
    For male readers, I wish to sincerely pull your entire body into this work. For female readers, you may have a sense of crisis that your partner might have some of the same ideas to be described in this book. As the author, I have decided to talk frankly about sexual desires and I wish to fully delve into this unknown world without being frightened of anything.
    I would like to mention the reason why I decided to write this book a little. I wrote two research papers about “pornography” and “mini-skirts,” and published them in academic journals (Japanese Journal of Addiction and Family, Vol.17, No.4, (2000), The Japanese Society of Studies on Addictive Behaviors / Women Studies, Vol.10, (2003), The Women’s Studies Association of Japan). Since they were academic journals, I thought that only a few people would read them, but, surprisingly, they evoked quite a response. The response expanded outside of the academic society, and a section of my mini-skirt paper was even read on a late-night TV program with a caption.
    I thought to myself, “Why is there such a sensation?” One day, a certain person said, “It is because in your essay you are talking about sex from your own point of view. Most writers throughout the world describe ‘this is what men are like generally’ or ‘this is what women are like generally’ without talking about their own sexuality, but you wrote, ‘this is what I am like,’ without hesitation. That is interesting to everyone.”
    I thought it made a lot of sense. I received encouragement from that indication. Also I wondered if I could write one book holding the position, “this is what I am like.” And, so that’s what I did and this book is that accomplishment. Roughly speaking, chapters one and two can be dedicated to the alteration of the two papers that I previously mentioned. I have the impression that a scholar should not write things so subjectively, but at the same time, I strongly feel that it should be a scholar’s duty to endeavor to make such an attempt when researching something as personal as sexuality.
    When thinking about men’s sexuality, feminism (the act of improvement in society from the viewpoint of women. We also call it “Women’s Studies”) is an ever-growing reference point. There is a social construction to control women so that men have a lot of advantages throughout this society. There has also been a strong build up of that influence in the ways we feel and think about sex.
    However, in this book, I’m not going into details about these theories. Instead, I am going to focus on my own ways of thinking and my own hypotheses. I came to this decision after serious consideration because I thought that the significance of this book was that it would be a suggestion of a new view of sexuality, and a chance to think about this problem from various angles.
    In this book, I’m going to write a lot of strange things and ideas, which may be contrary to common sense, but, for me, this is reality. I sincerely hope that at least some of my messages will reach the reader’s heart.